"She is a year ago.She is the ache in the empty,the first time you changed your mindand the last..."

“She is a year ago.

She is the ache in the empty,

the first time you changed your mind

and the last time you were sorry about it.

She is a city sleeping beside you,

warm and vast and familiar, streetlights

yawning and stretching,

and you have never. You have never.

You have never loved someone like this.

She is your first stomach ache.

Your first panic attack and your

favorite cold shower.

A mountain is moving somewhere

inside of you, and her handprints are all over it.

Here. Here. Here, you love her.

In the fractured morning, full of

too tired and too sad, she is the first

foot that leaves the bed.

She is the fight in you, the winning

and the losing battle

floating like a shipwreck in your chest.

When they ask you what your favorite moment is,

You will say Her.

You will always say Her.”

- Caitlyn Siehl, Her, Her, Her (via alonesomes)