"They tell me that if it hurts so badthat I should stop thinking about youas much. If I could I..."

“They tell me that if it hurts so bad

that I should stop thinking about you

as much. If I could I promise you

that I would but it’s not that simple.

They tell me that if I still love you

that they don’t feel bad for me

because I’m the one who is still

putting myself through this pain.

If I could stop loving you I would

but I can’t erase all the moments

of when we were together

from my mind. They say that if I can’t

move on then maybe I should

just tell you that I miss you.

But the last time I sent you a text

you told me that you were dating

someone else and she wouldn’t

like you texting your ex.

I deleted your number after that

because I thought it would help

but I still remember every fucking

digit by heart. They tell me if I can’t

let go then maybe I should just

be alone for a little longer.

But I want to somehow show you

that I’m okay even if I’m not

so maybe you can feel how I did

when I saw a picture of you

with her in the place that you said

you would never stop loving me.”

- "If I could I would," - Colleen Brown