Please fire me. I hate the numb, depressed, unfulfilled person I’ve become after working a dead end...

Please fire me. I hate the numb, depressed, unfulfilled person I’ve become after working a dead end job for 5 years. I’ve lost the will to take care of myself in ever aspect and have lost all respect in myself. Despite the smile and happy front I show day after day I actually have felt numb for majority of those 5 years. I can’t remember what it feels like to be proud of myself, to care about how I look or feel, to be happy, to want to do a good job and to be excited about my life. I am not living my dream and I’m now I’m too sad to try.