“Mama, if you’re listening, I’m so terribly sorry, but I did...

“Mama, if you’re listening, 
I’m so terribly sorry, 
but I did not mean to love that beast
of a man. I did not even wear
that red cape, those red shoes
just the armful of poppies
and maybe they looked like blood
or maybe they looked like healing 
but I found him first, 
and dropped them like bloodstains
on the forest floor. 
Mama, he was howling, 
and oh, if you’d heard,
the oh, of his grief 
even the moon was crying for him
even the night was weeping
mama, I know that we met on the edge 
of some awful precipice
but he folded my hands into his claws
made sure they didn’t draw blood 
I asked him about his dark and he said
‘who will love me now?’ 
I did, mama. 
I fell in love with him then,
And he took me home and kissed me 
till my heart looked like pulp 
and we undressed each other from the inside out 
and we loved till it was brimming 
and mama, it was a disaster 
and it was devastating 
and it was light. 
I lost your poppies. 
I lost myself, too. 
And now there’s a beast and he’s crying
and he’s asking ‘who will love me now?’ 
And mama, I didn’t mean to but I will,
I will.”

Azra.T || Red Riding Hood