"There was no warning when you left.I had to learn how to forget youall on my own. The people who..."

“There was no warning when you left.

I had to learn how to forget you

all on my own. The people who I

surrounded myself with didn’t

understand why it was so difficult,

why I couldn’t just wake up

one morning and realize that I am

better off without you. They said

that if you could leave me

so easily without a goodbye

that I deserve more, that I

deserve so much better than you.

But even if they are right,

that you must not have really

loved me if you could just pack up

and leave my life quietly, I cannot

seem to come to terms that you

are really gone and that you really

are never coming back.

Did what we have, what we

worked for and built together

really not mean anything to you?

How were you able to destroy

everything we created so easily?

I ask myself these questions,

I write them down for you

even though I know you will

never see them, never answer them.

I hope that one day when you

finally look back, finally retrace

your steps, that you will lead yourself

to me. I hope that so when you

show up at my doorstep one day

I can say with courage

and with practiced confidence

that I am doing fine, that I am

doing much better without you.”

- "I cannot heal overnight," - Colleen Brown