Obsessive

A great song runs through my mind: This Nearly Was Mine, from South Pacific, with the voice of Ezio Pinza as loud and clear and mesmerizing as when I first heard him sing it on Broadway. I listen obsessively, the song returning over and over, both saddening me and lifting me.

I think maybe it is a sense that the marriage was not finished; that there was more to come, the best part, before Sue succumbed to the diseases that swept her away. I have never been so much in love.