Being Authentic

Shattered Dreams by D. L. Kane Catching Kate by D. Kelly

Being Authentic

Wake up and go through each day just being yourself. No bullshit. No lies. No drama. You and those around you will be much happier.

Do you like the person you are? Are there things you love, and things you wish were different about yourself? Do you find you put a different “face” on, or have a different attitude in certain situations? With different people? Why? What makes this happen? Think about it…..

I would suggest it happens when we are not being our authentic self. For whatever reason we are forcing ourselves to do or be someone we are not. For me when I’m angry at myself my entire demeanour changes. I get the same inner conflict when I know my actions will disappoint or upset someone. Sometimes my body reacts with nausea and headaches. I get stressed and just feel sick.

It has taken me years to become comfortable with myself. I still wobble, sometimes I even fall down. But, I have grown stronger over the years and found my voice. I am more comfortable now than ever before just speaking up and making sure I’m heard. Not so long ago I found my stomach in knots and my head pounding. All because I was trying not to complain about my pain level. My authentic self was babbling in my head that I was normal. Normal people cry when they hurt. I was forcing myself to remain silent. Not one of my better days.

Over the last ten years I have been working slowly towards becoming more honest with myself and those around me. I have cleaned out my closets so to speak, and only put the things that serve me back in them. People that I have known for years, jobs that were very stressful, and situations that upset me were all left in the dust. Im not gonna lie, I miss some of the people, but I feel better for the most part. I’m proud of who I am becoming. I’m not there yet, but I’m in a better space than ever before, and most important of all I love the person I’m becoming.