"I already said too much. I already shared too much, and I want all my secrets back. I hate getting..."

“I already said too much. I already shared too much, and I want all my secrets back. I hate getting close to people these days. I always regret sharing too much, caring too much, doing too much, feeling too much.”

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Unknown (via insanity-and-vanity)

There are many, many days where I feel this way. I have a friend who sometimes wonders about why I feel like this, about what they can do to help, and it’s difficult because whenever I do feel like this, the answer is, “I want to be alone.” It’s hard telling people that I care about that I want to be alone, or left alone, but the truth of the matter is that it always boils down to being alone. Not going out and doing something, not forcing myself to be around people, but just being alone and really, truly feeling that ache that tells me to hunker down and hide.

It’s okay to want to be alone. It’s okay to be alone. Just don’t forget who’s outside your walls, patiently waiting for you to come back out and say hello again. But if anyone bangs on your walls and demands you to come out, because you should be a certain way or whatever, you don’t have to respond to that. It’s okay to be you. It’s okay to hide. Just don’t hide so deep that there’s no coming back.