I Should Quit Blogging
I should probably quit blogging. Why? Oh, I have a lot of reasons.
I’m not all that interesting.
I am a horrible photographer.
I don’t like having my picture taken.
Did I mention I am a horrible photographer?
I like a lot of things so it’s hard to have a niche. Unless that niche is a lot of things and that’s a bit of an oxymoron.
I’m 43, a mom, and I blog, but I detest the term “mommy blogger” and while it’s fine for others “mommy” is NEVER how I’ve defined myself.
I’m not 100% confident of writing everything down that pops in my head. I am every inch a Gemini (if you believe in that sort of thing) meaning I am really two different people and it depends on the day, and what role I am playing, as to who I am. The blogger me is the freer, creative, edgy, but that me still fights with the conservative college professor me so it can be a challenge to be truly authentic.
I love to cuss. in fact I would pitt myself against the proverbial sailor any day. But I feel guilty cussing in my blog.
Those are just a few of the things I thought of off the top of my head while I was sitting in a bar and drinking a glass, or 4, of wine. Did I mention I like wine…cause I do. And cheese. And cupcakes. That’s why I work out. Anyways…I digress…back to quitting blogging. I see all these amazing blogs with 4 page ranks and they are raking in the big bucks clearly writing their blogs beachside, on their own private island, (in case you don’t know me very well that’s sarcasm) and my blogging isn’t even close to that level. So why don’t I quit? Because I’m not a quitter.
If I was a quitter I wouldn’t drink wine or eat cupcakes because they aren’t healthy. But screw that. I’m not a quitter. I’m a figure it the f*** out and get it done kind of gal. And that I have…figured it out. Sort of, kind of, I think I have. After all this time living, and blogging, I think I have figured it out.
I am interesting. We are ALL interesting. Life is interesting, people are interesting.
I can learn to be a better photographer. I have a PhD for f***sake, surely I can learn to take a damn picture.
I can deal with being uncomfortable having my picture taken and maybe even get used to it. I am not ugly. On fact no one is ugly. We are all unique individuals and f*** anyone who uses the word ugly when talking about a person.
I can embrace having a wide array of interests.
I can define myself however I want. I love my kids but I don’t need to define myself by that.
I LOVE blogging and I want to keep improving and run with the big dogs who are on their own private island.
I do firmly believe you can accomplish anything you want as long as you put in the effort. I want to quit the “real world” and write my books and blog. I can do it. I know I can. And finally, after a looong time blogging, I think I finally know what I have to do.
Like that quote at the beginning which I just love. Being scared and knowing you don’t have all the answers or things exactly as they should isn’t something that should deter you from your dream. Don’t you just love that quote? I know I do and use it to remind myself of what I can do on a regular basis instead of what I can’t do.
Who is up for the challenge to kick blog ass and take names, baby? I know I am!
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