Lightning In A Bottle

I have always felt that a politician be judged by the animosities he excites amongst his opponents.

- Winston Churchill

I bottled that comment

Lit up with lightning

Buried it deep down inside

And going to feel it burn

Every time I’m weak

Im going to feel it

Scorching hot deep down inside

See I think you forgot

I love that

I always have

I learned that lesson a long time ago

When my pitching coach told me

That if no one is talking about you

Criticisms, critiques or positive feedback

Then they have forgotten about you

You are nothing to them

It’s true

So thanks for the feedback

Thanks for the lightning

I feel honored to have such a worthy adversary

And behind that smile

I know what lurks deep within

That blackness spewing

All I can hope for is you have a chance to get it all out

Because that type of hate will ruin your life

It ruined mine once

Tore me apart

Bit

By

Bit

Destroyed my relationships

Made my love murky

And caused this addiction in the first place

Sent me spiraling down this road for 7 years

What you don’t understand

And what I never told you

Was about this story, about this problem

That I had

I know why I am doing this

And to think that it would destroy my tracks

Is dead wrong

Because this is bigger than me

It’s not about me

It’s about dreams, it’s for the countless people

Who have in one way or another gone through what I have

And to do anything but put that black coal in the fire

Would mean I didn’t to be the one to make this happen

Sure accomplishing this will feel great

But I have another half a trek to go

The steepest part of the mountain to climb

Don’t think that yelling from the base of it is going to change my mind

Or that it is somehow going to send an arrow sizzling into my back

I’ve thickened by skin there

Fell to many times

But always landed on my back

Because I knew that if I could look up and see the stars

That I would always get up

You are right

You have me thinking about what you said

But I love it

This is new territory for me

It’s a type of water unexplored

I can’t tell you how excited that makes me

So watch what happens

Keep an eye on what goes on

Find yourself getting anxious for September

I want you

To witness.

- Evan Sanders

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