Change the Record

What do we say to ourselves? Get up, you lazy bag of bones! Hurry up and stop wasting everyone’s time! Stop drawing attention to yourself. Get a move on.

I’m always alone. No-one stays with me. I always have to manage by myself. I am never good enough. Nothing I do works out…..You get the picture.

I could simply change these voices by throwing them on their heads, just for a change. Let’s see. Slow down, you lovely lady. Take your time and smell the roses, there for you to enjoy. Join in with the party and have fun, there is plenty of room for everyone. Everything you do is much appreciated by everyone, and you are learning the lessons of love as you move forward in life.

I receive lots of help for my dreams and plans. I am never alone. People help me every day, with everything I do. (Gosh, that is certainly true!) Everything I do is fine, just as I do it. Everything always works out for me, at the best time and in the best way possible. I’m free.

No prizes for guessing which messages I prefer. Just because a record is an antique, is no reason to keep it. Age does not automatically confer respectability, any more than grey hair does; so I guess, in this season of hope and regeneration, a bit of playful reinvention would work wonders, huh?

Since paranoia strikes when I am tired, it makes sense to get enough rest. If I can’t think clearly because I’m hungry, it makes sense to go and prepare and eat a meal in peace. If I need colour, I should take a drive to a lovely garden. I did that today – hooray! – I wish I could remember more often, that these activities are not selfish. They are delicious. They are life savers.