"I found out the hard wayon how loving someone whois miles away from youis not worth the energy..."

“I found out the hard way

on how loving someone who

is miles away from you

is not worth the energy

that you put into wishing

that they were by your side.

This has not ruined my outlook

on love, but it has made me

revolt against distance.

I spent so much of my time

hoping that she would someday

be in my arms, and even more

against my skin. This has not

ruined my outlook on love,

but this has turned my mind

sour towards waiting for

someone who will never

actually be yours. When I

was finally next to her, able to

take her hand and show her

everything that I see through

my own eyes and instead of

a lens on a phone, she didn’t

have the excitement

in her eyes that I hoped for,

that she promised me she would.

This did not ruin my outlook

on love, but it did make me

question the sincerity behind

a promise. When she was

finally on the other side

of my bed, the side that she

claimed as her own long before

she knew that there was also

a side that belonged to me,

she became colder than

the other side of the pillow

that never gets to touch

the soft skin of your cheek.

This did not ruin my outlook

on love, but it did made me

doubt all of the times

where she said that she

would rather be laying next

to me then inside of a bed

that has ever only

experienced loneliness.”

- "She didn’t ruin my outlook on love, but she did ruin me," - Colleen Brown