mentioning suicide in writing has (mostly) helped me to a...

mentioning suicide in writing has (mostly) helped me to avoid seriously considering it.  for as long as i've written about it (roughly from the ages of 24 until now) i have been able to get out of that undeniable lowness that usual leads to the serious consideration (like from some other person inside) of suicide.  it's like when you're around a lot of people and you feel bad and you just say, 'i feel bad' out loud and you immediately feel a little better, because most of us are probably programmed to fight back against the things that make you feel bad/will end you, rather than giving in to them.  so it's not 'just talk' or 'something that is offensive' it's a concrete working out of a problem.