The “real” me and moving on
The people who know me and know me well are not shocked I am quiet most of the time. I keep my personal life pretty quite. I don’t want to air out my laundry and have people feel sorry for me or think differently of me. I am a very caring person and love to help others, but it is hard for me to ask for help or even take it.
Why am I writing this post you may ask? A person can only take so much before they start sticking up for themselves. A few things people have no clue and might be shocked by what I am about to say/write.
I will be 45 in October and I have been through a lot in the amount of time. I am a cancer survivor as of 1997. I had Hodgkins Disease when I was 18 years old. I made it through a year of chemo and a year of radiation. After which I contracted Thyroid disease due to the radiation killing my Thyroid gland. During all of this treatment I divorced my first husband as he was cheating and left Ft Bragg NC. Met my husband now and married in 1998. We lost a son Kincaid and buried him in 2001 he made it for a few hours after being born but his lungs could not make it. Wasn’t the easiest thing to do and I still miss him dearly. We tried and tried and decided to adopt and we now have 4 wonderful boys. Eight years ago my husband found out he had cancer. No big deal been there done that until the doctor told us 1 in 100 doctors barley see this type of cancer. Adenoid cystic carcinoma there is no cure and living 15 from the date diagnosed is 40%. I try not to think about losing my husband I try to live each day the best we can. He still works hard and goes on. Eight months ago I lost my mom. She was not sick and nothing could prepare for her sudden death.
I just keep moving on and trying to make each day a good one. I work hard and love what I do. When people say suck it up and go on to others I just shake my head. You might not know the whole story. It is not as easy as you think it is.
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