Getting Clean...

I slipped up again...and I thought I was cleanIt's not an addiction, it's just a dirty habitIt keeps me holding on night after nightBecause if you give up, you get what you getSo I use it to feel, but I swear I'm clean...
It's not an addiction, it's just something I doI love to go numb because it's better than the sting I like to pretend everything's not crumbling around me
And I tell myself to hold on to see what else life can bring
Then I think to myself "what's the point in being clean?"...