i feel bad for anyone who has to deal with me, if even fo...

i feel bad for anyone who has to deal with me, if even for like, one conversation.  i'm a fucked up mess with no hope.  don't deal with me.  i don't think i've been happy since i was like, i dont know.  there's like, a scream behind my forehead by my hairline and it just keeps throbbing and i can't get it out.  i just never feel ok. don't try and make me feel better.