"I will romanticize my lonelinessbecause that’s the only waythat it will ever seem bearableto me..."

“

I will romanticize my loneliness

because that’s the only way

that it will ever seem bearable

to me when I am by myself

in a world that I will never

seem to belong to or in.

So when did wanting someone

to love you for who you are

become something that we

took as a sign of weakness?

I know that I am not weak

because of the dedication

that I have invested into her.

I don’t need her because I am

broken. I need her because

everything feels misshapen

without her here to clear the air.

If I want to tell her in a poetic

tone that all I have ever

wanted was just inside

of her skin, I should be able

to tell her without feeling

as if I am breaking the rules,

or that I am destroying

everything that everyone

took the time to put together.

But I didn’t know that

needing someone who

makes you want to be

a better person was something

of a bad thing. And I didn’t

know that putting all of your

hopes and desires into

someone who radiates

with the feeling of tenderness

would be something

that would be considered

dependent and pathetic.

”

- "Stop telling me what I can and can’t do," - Colleen Brown