Some Thoughts on Sebastian’s Thorne

The new year is almost 2 days old. I’ve been pondering a ton of stuff lately and it just seemed that I let you, my family, friends, and fans in on at least one of those thoughts.

I’ve been asked more times than I can count within the weeks since I decided I was going WAY outside my comfort zone to write Sebastian’s Thorne… Why?

“Why are you writing an erotic romance Cu?”

“Why a m/m romance?”

The answer’s really simple. There’s several reasons on why I’m writing it. So I’ll tell you…

Please for the love of the gods if I start rambling, just let me; I promise there’s actual sense behind the madness lol The topic of sex in any form makes me blush and giggle like a kid. It’s pretty pathetic. But I can write it, so write I will >^.^<

1) The male anatomy has always interested me, since I took sex ed in the 5th grade really. The way a guy’s penis looks, feels, moves.. it fascinates the hell out of me. I like examining by touch and sight. And no not sexually, though my hubby makes for a poor guinea pig to my explorations LOL he gets excited if I breathe on it the “wrong” way LOL. The penis is just simply interesting as hell and I want to know as much about it as I do my own parts.

2) along with the physical explorations, there are mental ones.. I ask myself all kinds of questions at the most random times -.- Questions I’m too shy to look someone in the eye and ask.

“What do it feel like when it gets hard?”

“How does it feel when you get head?”

“does oral feel different than vaginal (or anal)?”

“What does cumming feel like?”

There are tons of others… I’m a very curious person when a topic interests me, and usually what interests me isn’t appropriate to be talked about. OMG yes! Cu is a big fan of all taboo topics! omg whatever shall I do?! O.O

2) It was on one of these random trains of thoughts, that Sebastian first whispered in my ear that he had a story he wanted told.

Over the months, Sebastian’s grown persistent to the point that I can no longer ignore him. I tried very hard to tell him that I’m a girl, I lack the parts and the knowledge to write what he demands, but he, like any other dominating character, won’t shut the hell up. (You other authors know how persistent a character can be)

So now, I have this story idea. Two young lovers, both male, from allied clans..

I’m still clueless to the fundamentals of how this particular relationship would go in the bedroom (or in the inn since Sebastian has no shame… or decency half the time apparently). I told this loud character this and he suggested I seek help from someone I know can help… If he’d been something other than a figment of my imagination, I’d have slapped him with a brick. Apparently Sebastian doesn’t know just how shy I am…

So I watched my wall, and I waited and Sebastian chose who he felt would be the best at giving me the information no holds barred, no holding back.. We’ll call this person my muse.

I ramble, stumble over my words, I’m sure I’ve accidentally offended him at least once, but he’s been just epic and laughs when I trip over my words or stick my foot in my mouth.

Bast couldn’t have picked a better person to be my muse, and the human embodiment of himself (even if he says my muse’s hair and eyes, while hot, are the wrong colors to be him). my muse is the single most freest and wildest spirit I know, almost a living entity of my Patron satyr god, Pan. He’s sexy, he passionate, he’s loving, he’s friendly, and he’s quite open about his sexuality. Just what I need! Someone who won’t blush as much as me when I get to those personal questions about feeling and whatnot!

4) So Sebastian’s Thorne is being written for him, and for others like him who are simply too much male for us females to handle. For the untamed, wild spirits.. For those still afraid to let the world know who they are.. for the best friends who found love most unexpectedly and loved hard, and fell even harder…

Please don’t question on why I write this book anymore. I am Cu’Anam.. the Wolf Spirit… I am naturally reserved, honorable, loyal, and true… I’m also fierce, protective, and passionate, exploitative, adventurous, and a thinker. This book is being written for those who I know will appreciate. And if you aren’t one of those, then it’s your loss, the story is probably the best I’ve ever had whispered to me. I doubt I’ll ever find another pair of characters who love each other more than Sebastian Drakul and Thorne She’bali do.

This book is outside my comfort zone in so many ways, but I’m hoping by the end of this wild ride, erotica of any form can be approached with a smile instead of the anxiety, embarrassment, and near shame I look at it as now. it’s going to take a lot of conversations with my wonderful ocean eyed muse to get the detail and understanding I will need for it. But I promise you it will be worth it.

So I give you the first teaser for your enjoyment >^.^<