Abandoned Blog

It's been a long time. A long time since I've blogged, a long time since I've written. My writing "career" is showing some serious neglect as of late, as well as this blog being downright sorrowful.

What can I say except that life has gotten in the way, but more than that, I guess I've gotten in the way. I have health issues going on, medication issues, as well as stress related to the care and wellbeing of my nephew.

It's made me question everything. I've kind of been in at a low point personally, and haven't had one extra ounce of energy to do more than open a file and sit and stare.

It'd downright depressing, downright terrifying, actually. It's scary not to have the energy or the gumption to do what you love, to do what you enjoy. Hell, there is no joy.

Writing has always been an escape for me, much as was reading was while going through the ups and downs that made up my life. It seems as though I'm unable to clear my mind enough to allow that escape to occur, however. Instead, writing or anything related to it, has become an overwhelming task that I'm unable to complete. It's a lock I can't open, even though I have the key grasped tightly in my palm.

It's been frustrating as hell and left me feeling extremely overwhelmed with the whole thing. Maybe I should stop writing, stop trying? The truth is, I just can't bring myself to give up on my dreams. I want more than anything to be a writer, to write, to share stories, to bring characters alive, and to share even the most personal and painful aspects of my life, to maybe allow others to fight strength in their own difficulties or similar situations.

Though I can't do any of that if I simply can't get my head into the right place. So, I'm checking in, hanging in there, trying to find some way to back to the words.

Thanks for hanging in there with me,
Taylor