(Very Damn Important Law #4) Meditation Is Like Making Out With Yourself.

When I'm in a relationship with someone, I like making out. A LOT. Besides the fact that it's just freaking fun, it helps me feel bonded and connected to that person.

I've talked a lot about meditation in the past few years…beyond writing, it’s the one thing that makes me feel most connected to myself. Fulfilled. Bonded to my better self. But I've noticed that, even though it's one of the best things I can do for myself, it's also the first thing I drop when I have a hard day or when I get busy. And I find that, during downward spirals and the like, I actually resist it. I literally deprive myself of the thing that would do the most good to make me feel better and lighter because I either feel like I don't deserve to have that time or priority over other stuff, or because I know it's going to bring up something I don't want to acknowledge at that time.

(GOD this stuff is weird, when I start to actually examine it. It's crazy how there are so many areas in my life where I'm so quick to stand up for myself and be autonomous and self-possessed, and then there are other areas like this where it's actually almost embarrassing to admit this stuff out loud.

Sorry for ruining the perfect perception that all of you guys had of me, everybody! I know this is probably a real blow, to realize that I'm not as together and effortlessly perfect as you all thought. Guess I'm not the role model that you all thought I was. It's going to be okay, though…just take a deep breath and hold my hand…we're get through this together.)

So, in my quest to focus the energy that I would ordinarily put toward attracting or keeping a relationship with someone else, I'm retraining myself to look at meditation as making out with myself. Just as valuable, just as important to do in order to build the kind of relationship and inner succor for myself that I (again, mistakenly) keep trying to seek from external sources.

Also, it's just super fun to think of mediation as making out with yourself. You're welcome.

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