No, just leave me alone bipolar disorder thoughts- I will not listen to you!

I woke up feeling ok this morning. I am very much looking forward to watching soccer with my friends.  (It’s the Champion’s League game with Arsenal and Borussia Dortmund for any football fans out there!)

I have my morning planned out so that I can get my work done before and after the match.  The weather is nice and I actually got to sleep rather easily last night! All good stuff.

Then, as I was walking to Starbucks where I am doing my email, I started to have these thoughts:

“Something is not right. I am in the wrong place. My clothes look funny. I am not as great as I think I am.  Things will not work out for me. Other people have it so much easier. Something is wrong.”

If you have bipolar disorder, you know that these quick mood swings can be actual thoughts that you can identify- or they are simply the feeling that something’s wrong.   You just don’t feel right.

As soon as this started, I used the tips I talk about in my books and did the following.

1. Reminded myself that I always have these thoughts when I am in a new situation such as going to a noisy place to watch a soccer game. It’s just stress and the thoughts are ALWAYS the same no matter what the event. I have them written specifically on my Health Cards so I won’t forget how normal the thoughts are for me. The Health Cards are my treatment plan- there is a link on the menu to read more.

2. I said LEAVE ME ALONE to the thoughts over and over again and just pushed the thoughts from my head. I was fine when I woke up- so I knew I could make sure this was just a blip on my day.

3. I kept going with my plan which was to go to Starbucks and do my email before I watch the match. I know that I can get things done no matter what my mind is thinking- this is mild stuff compared to what I have been through and I will not let it ruin my morning!

Julie

 

 

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