Just an Update

So I haven’t had another ‘bad day’ since the last one I posted about. My cycle is still building but it is gradual and moving at the regular rate. My wife asked the other night if she should make an appointment for me to see your doctor but I declined. This cycle is nothing out of the ordinary really and I am on the maximum dosage of my pills that I’m allowed so there didn’t seem to be a point. I knew all I would get from him was ‘we can control it some but not cure it’. This is not a cavalier attitude, nor an uncaring one, that he takes. It is simply the truth. A truth which I have come to accept.

As happens most times when my cycle get going my Muse is back. It is as if the gods want to give me something in exchange for the curse. It seems a fair trade to me. I love when the story is filling my head and that world comes alive. And if it is an escape from the reality that is unpleasant, well so what?

I have yet to fix the truck, but that is because I’m waiting for the check to come in. I hope I don’t have any real problem replacing the vacuum pump but so far I have found working on my baby to be a pleasant experience (the only frustration comes in diagnosing, not in actual fixing).

I still need more wood to get through this season and, as always, I have put it off due to other things until it is almost too late. But as this year the temperature has stayed reasonable (cold but not bone numbing) we have yet to light the furnace which helps with estimated wood consumption.

I am, as much as can be, content today.

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