what happened to the guy you went on a date with?

We were supposed to go out again but I became too tired and stayed home instead. His hands are beautiful, and his lips are pure magic, but I am too tired, too worn out, and too focused on my own goals to get all tied into someone. For the longest time I was always focused on finding love, finding someone to complete me, but now I think it’s time to start focusing on myself. And I know people say that so often. But it’s really true to me. I think you should develop a kind of love for yourself before you try to push love onto someone else. I am just too tired. My eyes and hands have had enough of this back and forth, ‘does he want me’ ‘does she want me’ kind of thing. I’m just going to write and wait it all out. I have so much time. Too much time to go on rushing into things that may not even be meant to be.