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It's been five days since I wrote anything, mostly because of things going on in my life. Wish they were good things. On fathers day I was alerted to being a new grandfather. A semi happy moment indeed. The added complication was that my daughter didn't want the boy, and wanted me to take him.

After seeing the loving bundle I couldn't see how I could not want him, so I agreed to take him, thinking it should be an easy thing enough for my little girl to have me raise her son till she got her life straightened out. In steps CPS and that all changed.

Apparently the fact that I committed a couple of felony's before my daughter was ever born, back when I was a teenager automatically disqualified me to receive my grandson. Even tho I was 47 years old today and I committed that burglary when I was 18.

Our only option was to try and get a lawyer and fight it, but we only had till 9am the next day to do that. In the end my daughter fell apart and just gave my grandson away to be adopted. My heart goes with her and her wish's, but I feel like I lost something special in my life.

Ah the stupidity of youth, I mean mine not hers. I wish I could take that stupid night back and never went out with my friends that night. One night of stupidity effecting a precious child so far in the future that I never really will get to know or could of known what the repercussion would be from that night.