I Am Not a Strong Person

Sometimes (actually, pretty often) I feel like a fraud.

All of my writing is self-published (even the Holly Lisle book wasn’t done through a traditional publisher).

I don’t write every day. Heck, I don’t even write MOST days. I get sick or grumpy or tired or whatever, and I convince myself it doesn’t matter.

What right do I have to get on this little soapbox and try to convince anyone to listen to me? What makes me think I have anything to say worth listening to?

I’ve been sick with a cold lately (which explains why Perry had to pinch-hit on Monday for the post) and I used some of that time to watch an anime rapidly growing in popularity, Attack on Titan (Warning: serious, bloody, horrificly good anime. Do not watch if squeamish, but it’s available on Crunchyroll).

There’s a quote in there said to a character who has the option of taking the easy way out and getting an easy job protecting the capitol OR taking the suicide job of being on the front lines attacking the titans. The quote is this:

I hope you won’t get mad when I say this… But you aren’t a strong person. So you can relate to how the weak feel.

This struck me, even through my nyquil-induced haze.

Steven makes me stronger than I could have ever been. He’s constantly encouraging me and holding me up and making me a better person.

The posts on this blog aren’t my way of saying “here is how I am succeeding” … they’re my way of saying “here is how I am failing, and what I plan to do to fix it.”

You guys and your support and commentary and appreciation? That keeps me going. Tells me I’m doing something right. Giving something back and helping others instead of just consuming.

I am not a strong person, but that just means I can relate to how the weak feel.

Related posts:

[Perry] First Person Perspective
Be Today The Person You Want To Be Tomorrow
The Myth of Strong Female Characters