Nine months later....Time the Revelator Pt. III....

Update from last post: Papa Robin was successful and launched his four fledglings  without Mama Robin as I foretold. As you can see below, my last "special" four are still and will be with me always....while the other eight are flying on their own with the memory of their Mother's love being part of the "wind beneath their wings."

Through the  process of time in these last nine months more revelations have come to light....God is trustworthy.....my feelings are not. Even though it may seem like family and friends leave you behind, that loneliness is your only companion, and that your hopes and dreams have died ......I am not alone...As difficult as this is for me to understand, our lives are in the hands of God. All of my feelings of being responsible in Barbara's death for all the things I should have or could have done.... are saying that Our God is not in control.  Psalm 139:16 says, "All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."  In my complaining to God about our circumstances, I've realized that it is more important to listen to what He has to say to me, than for me to be talking to Him about things that I will never understand this side of Heaven...
Truthfully, even though it has been nine months....I am still mourning.....not just for the hopes and dreams we had for the future...but for the loss of our children and grand children's memories that Barbara's countenance and heart will not physically embrace as their lives unfold. It is a deep wounding....but one our Father through the process of time is healing...



In His grip,
 Papa Tripp