Dancing in the Moonlight
It seems to me like some people live their lives without thinking too much about the present. They’re immersed in the hopes of tomorrow or hounded by the pain of the past, all the while the present rushes by them and becomes part of the bland past already painted. I often think of my present and how much better it would be if I had that someone to share life with. If the man of my dreams fell asleep next to me every night, his breath mixed with mine as our bodies warmed each other. Someone to talk to about things no one else understands. Someone to laugh and cry besides all of life’s ups and downs.
But the truth remains:
I’m alone.
My dreams of dancing in the moonlight beside my beloved are just that. Dreams. If I spend my life wishing for tomorrow, I may never live today. Love is important. It carries us through so much, but if I don’t love my own life enough to stop wasting precious time by fixating on the past or future, I will never be able to truly love this man when he enters my life.
How will I be able to merge my life with his if I cannot appreciate my own life right now? How will I truly appreciate his life? Our life? How will I be able to dance in the moonlight with him if I can’t dance in the moonlight alone?
True love, I honestly believe, starts right here. If we can’t be content alone, then our relationships will never last. We’ll place too much pressure on the other person. If he doesn’t love us perfectly . . . if he fails . . . if he does something that hurts us (which will inevitably happen) . . . we will give up. We will constantly search for the person who fits our expectations in every way, who loves us more than he is capable. If, however, we enjoy the present, live every moment as though it’s our last, and embrace life with all of us . . . when that person comes along we’ll never give up, because we’ll understand the depth of love and it’s so much better to spend our lives giving love and being content never receiving it.
When we do receive love in return . . . it is a gift, not a necessity.
That’s how I want to live.
Right now.
And always.
