Author instability
I made the decision to limit my blogging until
A Woman’s Worth
is completed, but today I felt the need to post.
For the past few days, I’ve been frustrated, discouraged and slightly depressed. Everything is getting on my nerves. I feel unproductive, unsuccessful, unmotivated, isolated and lonely. Yesterday, I even experienced an ugly moment of writer jealousy for which I am not proud.
My sales are in the toilet this month, because I stepped back from doing promotion in order to write - one of the miserable things about being an indie author without an assistant to do the grunt work for you.
Thought I'd hooked up with a new critique partner, but that didn't work out. I need someone to interact with on a regular basis, and after she agreed, she realized she didn't have the time.Still haven't written the big initial love scene, because I seem to have a mental block against it.
After I read my devotionals this morning, God gently reminded me that I go through this syndrome with every book. He said if I didn’t believe Him, I needed go back through my blogs (this one and the old one) and see proof.
Sure enough, when I did I found entries entitled, “Frustrated,” “Overwhelmed,” "Distractions," and “Obsession.”
This valley experience seems to just be part of my process, but I hate it and would love to find a way to avoid it completely. I just want to get back to being the happy writer…
For the past few days, I’ve been frustrated, discouraged and slightly depressed. Everything is getting on my nerves. I feel unproductive, unsuccessful, unmotivated, isolated and lonely. Yesterday, I even experienced an ugly moment of writer jealousy for which I am not proud.

My sales are in the toilet this month, because I stepped back from doing promotion in order to write - one of the miserable things about being an indie author without an assistant to do the grunt work for you.
Thought I'd hooked up with a new critique partner, but that didn't work out. I need someone to interact with on a regular basis, and after she agreed, she realized she didn't have the time.Still haven't written the big initial love scene, because I seem to have a mental block against it.

After I read my devotionals this morning, God gently reminded me that I go through this syndrome with every book. He said if I didn’t believe Him, I needed go back through my blogs (this one and the old one) and see proof.
Sure enough, when I did I found entries entitled, “Frustrated,” “Overwhelmed,” "Distractions," and “Obsession.”
This valley experience seems to just be part of my process, but I hate it and would love to find a way to avoid it completely. I just want to get back to being the happy writer…

Published on May 23, 2013 08:13
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