My Autobiography

Many of you already know that I have been working on my autobiography for years but I have just really started it close to six months ago. This is a book that I really want to write but yet I fear it at the same time. How open should I be? Is there a such thing as to open? Can I write this book and think that I won't have nightmares when I finally do find sleep? Because lord knows nightmares are easily found every time I open the file to write in it. I was really working hard in it last week until two nights in a row I had such nightmares that I woke my girls up in the middle of the night. The weird thing was the dreams had nothing to do with my past at all, it was like a ghost was pulling me out of the bed by my feet. It was trying to drag me out of the bed toward the side of my bed, almost like if it could just get me off of the bed it could drag me into a black hole where I could never find myself out of. I wish I knew the meaning of that dream, am I not suppose to be writing this book or not. Is something meant to only stay in my mind and if so how will I ever heal from it. Writing has always been my release from all my pent up emotions. I feel safe from the world and even myself when I write. I will probably never know the meaning to that dream but I do know it is not going to scare me from writing about a past worth forgetting, only in my words can I forget what is always in the shadows of my mind. Do you have a journey that you wish to tell but fear to remember? I do!  You can follow my autobiography by clicking the button below Five year old death