Fingers crossed for an extension of Ash's daily posts beyond April

A debt of emails. Marisol writes “…how do you find/make time to write?” “…concentration” To which I still haven’t responded b/c the answer is “Barely.” And she also writes To understand local fights around Hays Street and HemisFair, we have to think global,in other words—which means understanding the shift to neoliberal forms of capitalism insofar as these shape urban governance, and by extension,the production of urban space. And also Whose mobilities, and what kind, are given preference now . So I want for there to be an answer b/c Marisol is a brilliant and good writer and I want her to keep writing forever. And “…because my whole life there have been people and forces, like some men and mortality, who have tried to keep me from writing, and fuck them.” (Anne Boyer). And also, as Anne mentioned, Bernadette Mayer’s “Eve of Easter” and — backup — is to write with concentration the by-product of a system of men with babysitters and shorter work weeks? People rich enough for the childcare to write outside a wage? People with luck? I can steal writing this right now b/c my child is sleeping and it’s saturday — or as Bernadette entwines the literary forebarer with the sleeping child literature slips between the spaces of the antecedents who want to nurse. “caring for the babies of these guys.” When my child wakes up he will want to steal loquats from the neighbor’s yard, and he will call them “klumclots” and I will tell him eat everything but the seed. That is can we sustain a look long enough to see the systems which produce the spaces in which we write even outside of concentration? Are there methods to glance the structure briefly enough to see where to destroy it? what is preservation (of memory) in provisional space? Even before I had a child I had to put children in my poems b/c isn’t the want to take care of someone else’s child a radical gesture? an incorporation. that it isn’t an issue of ownership? that care is work, but that it shouldn’t be solitary.

What are the theories of the representation of children in poems?

Not a list of don’ts, but ways? And not a hierarchy. In Lumiere Brother’s _Repas de Bebe_ baby Andee enters the screen w/o the expectations of the hollywood starlet but the expectations of the bourgeoisie upon her. “The projection of Repas de Bebe and publication of Studies on Hysteria in 1895 conjoin cinema and psychoanalysis in a way that becomes fully apparent after the appearance of Freud’s Interpretation of Dreams…. cinema provides a public version of dreaming….” But I’m thinking of Dan Thomas Glass’s Kate and Sonia poems and Alma poems in which it never feels to me that daughters are merely projection or muse.
…my real love for you
as I lived it, in exactly
these colors.

and\ or also “I improvise attention”