Getting a little mushy…and personal.

I will probably be balling my eyes out while I type this, just so you know. And because it’s about my husband, I will not have him edit it. He will just get all embarrassed. So, we are going to make a deal. You promise to assume all errors are due to the tears in my eyes. Deal?

Come on, you have to agree or you can’t continue. Deal???? All right. . .you promised.

The other night as I was stressing out and crying, (Yes, this is a fairly common occurrence over here in the Wall’s household) my husband sighed and looked at me with the saddest eyes. He said something that he has said before, he said, “I wish you could see what I see.”

I know. I wish I could too. I have wished that so many times, because often times I just don’t.

Then he said, “Honey, not recognizing your strengths is your biggest character flaw. If I could change anything about you, that would be the only thing. I love all your quirks, everything about you. This is the only thing that I would change, that you could see all the good you do and how amazing you are.”

It was beautiful. To be loved like that. How could I ask anymore? I could not. I am so blessed to have him in my life. He is the most loving, supportive husband I can imagine and my perfect match in every way. He puts up with so much crazy (aka, stress out crying sessions) and yet the only thing he would change about me is to give me the ability to truly appreciate who I am.

My biggest wish is that my son will treat his wife like this, and my daughter will settle for nothing less. Our marriage has been work, and growth—but we have gown together.

Last night I read Cassandra Clare’s, The Clockwork Princess. I rarely cry at books.But there was a part near the end where two dear friends, who loved each other very much, were parting. It spoke to my biggest fear, loosing the man I love, and I balled like a baby.  “All my life, since I came to the institute, you were the mirror of my soul. I saw the good in me in you, who will see me like that?” –Will Herondale, the Clockwork Princess-

Zack, you are my greatest blessing, and your eyes the window through which I see me. I love you. Thank you for loving me.