I didn't know that stinking conference could cause me suc...

I didn't know that stinking conference could cause me such anxiety, even away from it. Or maybe it's BECAUSE I'm away from it that it's causing me anxiety. I don't think my dad, when he contemplates the annual convention of cardiologists, feels the same way. Right?
Next year I have, have, have to have some good, useful reason for being there and apparently I need to figure it out soon because panel proposals are due next month. See? That damn conference makes me crazy, even ten or eleven...