State of the CW

My birthday is in nine days. Go me.

This has been a really, really shitty month. A couple of positives, yep, but no big wins. But I don't think that's the problem. It's possible it's just the post-project blues. Everything is very gray and very blah right now. I've gone through this before, but this is the first time that it's actively hurt. You don't think about emotional low points being physical pain, but I've felt like I've had a pincushion for a gut for a week solid. Usually this only happens if something is actively wrong.

I have no idea what's going on with my head right now, but I wish it'd just knock it off.

Some of you have probably noticed I revised the publishing schedule and took the next Gray Prince book off the list. That's soft, depending on how much revision the story will require, but I don't think that I could get it ready for publication without severely hurting the other releases. It'll get released. Just...not now.

I just wish sometimes that there was a reality checklist. Something I could go to that would say "hey, this is real and you need to pay attention, this isn't real and you can dismiss it." I believe the negative things better than the positives because people are more likely to lie and say something's good when it isn't. It's just getting real low around here right now, and I'm running out of things to look at that remind me life doesn't completely suck.