What I know for sure… Life Goes On

No… the whole world didn’t end this time either. There was no cataclysmic apocalypse that destroyed the Earth… but, I think it’s hard to deny that things are changing. I spent a lot of my life afraid of all the things that have been happening in my life just in the last few months. I held on for dear life to people and situations that no longer served a prominent place in my life. I needed them… for whatever reason and I made space even if it overcrowded my life. I operated out of fear and doubt. None of it made me happy.

The paradigm shift that has occurred has caused me to do some real soul searching. Who am I really? What will I contribute? What am I worth? How will I identify myself and what weight will those identities carry in my life? How will my actions, words and intentions finally converge to present my true self? When the baggage that I carried started to fall away… I was left with some very raw realities. If I was going to be an authentic person, having authentic experiences… I had to change my whole way of moving in the world. By letting go of my strongest motivator, I would totally change myself.

What I know for sure is… Life Goes On! If I don’t have this person, that degree, this job, that relationship… am I not still an awesome being? Other people, homes, cars, jobs, opportunities and relationships will still be available to me. The world didn’t end. That means that I have just a little more time to get this thing right. The next apocalypse could happen any moment. I don’t want to be then, who I am now.