The OUIJA BOARD--I Still Want to Use It

In third grade a girl Margie brought a Ouija Board to our classroom. The teacher had no problem with this since it was Halloween and we were having a party.



Some of the first kids to try did not have patience and quickly gave up. I tried with Margie and we got the planchette to move a tiny bit but not enough to spell out any cryptic messages from beyond.



Then the board seemed to warm up. Everyone that got a chance experienced some movement, but it never pointed anywhere--in fact it never stopped. It kind of swung around and eventually moved in larger and larger circles. Sometimes it went off the edge. We took that as a sign that the 'spirits' wanted new participants.



About a half hour later we began asking question and get some answers. Our new friend was male and he was mad that we were bothering him. (We knew this because our teacher asked.) We asked what his name was, and the board did spell out a name, but I cannot remember what it was. Someone asked if he was stupid. My teacher said, "Be nice." Everyone laughed. But that was the last answer we got from the board. No one felt any motion after that and we all quit soon after.



The Ouija Board thrilled me! I went home and told my parents about how much fun we had during the day. They told us we had a board in the basement and they could not get it out fast enough for me.



Needles to say I was hooked. I played with my sister, neighbors, and friends.



Then we started having seances.



We lived in a new house and had some new friends and the basement was perfect for conjuring the dead. Of course we were scared a few times...we would have been scared just sitting down there with a single candle burning.









My friend and I were wandering around NYC one afternoon and stumbled upon Weiser's Bookstore. Walking down a few steps we walked into what we discovered was a large and relatively famous occult bookstore started in 1929 by Samuel Weiser. (Weiser's still exists as an online bookseller and now publisher of esoteric and occult literature. http://redwheelweiser.com/p.php?id=2 ) . That day I purchased a pendulum for divination and spend many fun nights at parties reading fortunes.  http://readersandrootworkers.org/wiki/Category:Pendulum_Divination



Then I moved on to Tarot Cards. I had a knack for them and people began to ask me to read them again and again. The results I had were oddly accurate.   I said whatever popped into my head and half the time ti meant something to the person I was talking to thought I had no clue what it was about. People began to offer me money for the reading, and not a little bit. I began to study them more and more, and found them fascinating.



If you have followed this blog at all you know I have had my share of strange and seemingly supernatural occurances in my life. The house I lived in before this one seemed haunted. We would hear the silverwear shaking in the drawer, the television would turn on and off by itself, and worst of all my husband and I thought we were having conversations with one another, but no one was there.



I came home from work one day and saw my husband looking out our master bedroom window at the woods across the street. I was waving and trying to get his attention when the automatic garage door started opening, and my husband stepped out.



I got very upset and I don't think my husband paid much attention to my story until the night he was having a conversation with me in the laundry room and he turned around and I was not there. He called my name and I answered--from our third floor master bedroom.



We had the house blessed. In the very last room of the blessing (the master bedroom again) as the final blessing was said my jewelry box with a small angel fell off my dresses. The minister turned around and asked me "Did you do that?"



No. I did not.



Things slowed down then came to a stop after the blessing. We were happy since we were starting a family. We have since moved to a new house. Not too long ago I woke in the middle of the night. No windows are opened--it is cold here. I watched the bathroom door slowly open on its own, and stop before it could hit the bookcase.



They're hhhhhheeeeeerrrrreeee......



A page from 100 Unfortunate Days about the dangers and delights of the occult:




Day 27




I went to a store in town whose name that implies the things sold there will help you be successful.




When you go in the store you can smell the burning sage and other incenses— you can smell this all the way down the block. They sell books for alcoholics and drug addicts and people who want to commune with God or spirits. They also do tarot card readings and angel interpretations and anything else you can think of that will attract spirits or angels or demons into your life. I thought this seemed cool. The card reading said pertinent things to me.




But I don’t know if this is healthy.




After this I took a class in hypnosis, and then one in acupressure, and then I carried the little Angel Cards that I picked at each session with me. And something bothered me about it every time. My marriage was terrible and getting worse. I could feel my hatred for my husband growing by the minute. BUT I was being open minded and I thought reading cards and knowing the future and reading about the devil was a good thing because I was enlightened. I stopped reading the book about the devil dead-smack in the middle and took a train south. I pushed past any exhaustion I felt. I threw away the cards I’d kept tucked into my wallet—they had demons attached to them and so I prayed to St. Michael. I should pray to him every day—twice a day. I wanted a shell of protection like I read about in The Screwtape Letters—somehow I got it. I know I am safe now and I will not stray again.




Ha ha. Even as I say this I realize I am full of shit, especially when there is a full moon and I’ve had too much wine. I feel surrounded by spirits at night. They can be there and I can be safe. I think. I can laugh at them and know I am with God—and as I write those words I know I am lying. I don’t think I am one of God’s favorites. The insidiousness of it all is the most evil. It creeps in and finds a place with a pillow and cuddles up and you are not even sure it is there at first. You don’t know when it starts to creep in, but it’s funny how you can tell when it’s gone.




At least for now.