July 2012 (TW DEPRESSION)Given how marvelous, full, and blessed...

July 2012 (TW DEPRESSION)

Given how marvelous, full, and blessed all previous months were, it alarms me to write this: When I sat down to remember what happened in July, I recalled a crater-sized depression that I fell into back then. From the outside now I see how much I had to look forward to, how full my hands were with lucky stars, but that doesn’t make it less real. And you know what, sometimes depression is just that. It’s not someone being blind to the good around them, or being lazy, or not trying hard enough. It’s a time of slag and saddness. Sometimes inexplicable. And I felt it was important for me to share that with you. I could have written about missing my dad, or hating my day job, or my slam team experience, or fun times in brooklyn, or the month or two i decided to go no-poo (stop using shampoo) but all of it was swallowed up by the random and crippling sadness I felt. And feeling those feelings are okay too. All of which is to say? I am so glad I stuck around and am here to tell you about the rest of 2012. It’s only up from here.