arkhamboundz: I have never been popular, I’m not tumblr famous, and I’m not the most amazing...

I have never been popular, I’m not tumblr famous, and I’m not the most amazing cosplayer…. but I’m okay with it not being “perfect”. coming on here and seeing the support and reblogs and likes and getting the occasional message all make me feel so special and wonderful. I really do appreciate it.

I don’t even really consider myself having fans…there are just really nice people that just acknowledge me. Someone told me that fangirled because I.followed them on tumblr. Honestly, you have no idea how amazing that made me feel.

I promise that, no matter how many people say they like my cosplays or something, I won’t get a big head or put people down. I’m doing this for fun. I may get jealous sometimes of other cosplayers’ expertise and costumes, but it’s okay. I can improve.

When I was in middle school, I was bullied because I was just a little different. I was quirky. I didn’t have pin straight hair, or 20 different vera bradley purses, or cute black shoes, or functional side bangs. I had tangly hair, a purse I found at walmart, clunky shoes, and part that went down the center of my scalp. When I finally got those things I thought I needed, nothing changed…the popular girls still didn’t like me, the boys still hated me. I still felt unwanted.

Mom would always tell me that I would find my niche one day.

About a year ago and a half ago, I found comics. I really didn’t start reading them until September of last year, and that’s when it really exploded. I had had an incident in the year before that, in January. I got sick with the stomach bug, and I developed pretty bad anxiety issues. I found comfort in Oracle, a character that I felt I could relate to, in some sense. See, after she was shot, she kinda stayed cooped up in her house for about 6 months (except for when her dad made her go out) until she became Oracle. Although it basically took me a year to get out of my funk, I felt like I found my “oracle”, I guess. I found my niche.

And I fit right in…