Chaotic Whimsy

I wonder how many will open this out of sheer curiosity!

The titles of many of my poems and writing are plays on
words and often offer a brief tease or glimpse into my world of words [image error]

I have always loved the art of words and their interplay;
and it is through these words that I have chosen to express myself throughout
my life.  Today’s' title is no different!

Often times in the past when things 'got bad' I would get
going, in a very bad, sad direction, one that was often saturated in anger
and aggression.  This path, as I am sure I have not been the only to
experience, is exhausting!  The emotions that drive this path are, to me,
chaotic!!

More recently, since I made that conscious choice a few
years ago, I decided that the chaos, which did not appear overnight, wouldn't
go away overnight either.  My choice now became in how I would deal with
it.  'Chaotic Whimsy' was borne!  Of course I held no false beliefs
that I could simply wish anything away; but I knew I could have more energy if
I choose to breathe, take a walk; or simply take each situation as it was and
not make a mountain out of a mole hill! 

Some of those "mole hills" were pretty big, and I
wondered at times if they weren't mountains after all, but I did force my feet
to take the two steps back I had promised to ME; take MY two breaths and then to:
RE- EVALUATE!! 

Each and every time, I found that even though some of those
"mole hills" were kind of big; they weren't always there, and an
earthquake hadn't put 'em there.  So I started to chip away, one small
step at a time. 

You have to do it for you.  No one else. 

You have to owe it to yourself, and hold yourself to a
mirror, not have someone else holding the mirror of guilt to you. 

In the end, every situation I have encountered has come down
to this:  How bad did I want it?

Answer that and then take a walk, for you.

Take two breaths, slowly, for you.

Now TWO steps back.

Now look again and please see if what you saw before doesn't
look the same?

If it does: Repeat!

Nothing worth having is easy; and nothing easy is worth
having.

             
Hard work always pays in the end!

                        
So with that I hope this finds all who will happen upon these word
better today then the last; and even better tomorrow~ as you will always,
always, be better and never held by your past! 

                                               
 Ursula Kay Vos