Bipolar Disorder Depression Treatment: My brain is lying to me!

My Bipolar Brain is Lying to Me!

All right bipolar brain! I’ve had enough! Shut up!

This is what I had to say to myself today when my brain would not leave me alone.  I sat outside at a cafe to get work done today.  The weather was great, my hands which often give me trouble were not bothering me and I was actually getting work done.  But every time a couple walked by I had the thought- you will never be happy like them Julie. Or if I saw a baby- I had the thought- you’ll never have the experience of having a baby. I felt like my life was wasting away and that others were having so much more fun than I was.

This is the bipolar trap and luckily I know enough to eventually recognize what it is and then tell my brain to.. shut up. It’s a harsh way to do it, but when this happens I have to snap myself out of it. Here are the facts outside of bipolar disorder:

- I am currently single because it’s the absolute right choice for me. It’s a conscious decision. I’ve been in relationships for the majority of my adult life and I doubt a year without one will kill me. Of course I prefer a loving relationship as most people do, but now is not the time. Crazy brain.

- I have never wanted a child nor do I want one now!  It’s ridiculous what my brain says! My nephew is the light of my life and that is enough for me! What on earth is my brain thinking? I don’t even want to take care of a puppy! 

- There is no way everyone is happier than I am. Please! There are 100,000 + people where I live.

- In an hour I’m going to meet friends to see  a movie and then have a bbq. Why does my brain completely disregard this information?

Bipolar disorder lies to me. It lies all of the time. If I listen to it, as I did for many, many years, I will be miserable.

Saying I’ve had enough! and SHUT UP! to my brain and writing this got me out of the episode.

Julie

PS: When I read this,  it’s actually quite funny what the brain comes up with. It’s hard when I’m in it- but funny when I think of how totally dumb it is.

PSS: In case you were wondering, that is not me in the picture.

Don’t forget to sign up for the newsletter on the right. It’s awesome.

 

Related posts:
Bipolar Disorder Depression Sucks
bipolar disorder depression tips
OCD: Dating and Bipolar……Brain… please leave me alone!