Setback

I'm thinking of going off testosterone when my current prescription runs out. I can't afford it anymore and I'm pretty sure I'm never going to pass. I had almost a full beard until I shaved it off last night, and I still got ma'amed every. single. day. Maybe I just don't have the guts to do this.

I still want the male pronouns and all, please. I'm still a guy, same as I've always been (even if I did do drag for 40 years). I just don't think the world at large is ever going to see it.