Yesterday Was a Bad Day for Me

Yesterday was a bad day for me. Life hit me in my most vulnerable spot – my finances. I work as a freelance writer and my most important client told me that he will need to significantly cut back on the amount of work he can send my way. This is something that I knew could happen, but it still managed to rock my world. Funnily enough I was writing a blog post on how I never had bad days anymore when his email hit my inbox. Talk about tempting faith – that particular article has been shelved indefinitely.

I Always Land On My Feet

Yesterday I felt full of fear – one of the things that I was dreading most in the world happened. I didn’t sleep well last night (thankfully a rare occurrence), but my mood has lifted this morning. I remember that I’m a survivor – I always land on my feet. Things might get a bit tough around here, but I’ll do whatever it takes to stay afloat. I have a family to take care of and that is what breadwinners do.

I truly believe that life has a purpose, and that things happen for a reason. I know that this may sound like a trite idea, after all there is so much suffering in the world, but I can only go by my own experience. My path has taken me to exactly where I need to be.

When I became sober six years ago at Thamkrabok temple the monks there promised me that my life would keep getting better so long as I remained sober. I don’t know how this promise works but it has, and I expect this to continue in the future. Amazing things have happened to me, and it is like I’m being guided by some higher force – I don’t even try to guess the nature of this force because it is beyond my comprehension. Bad things do still happen but overall life is great and getting better all the time.

Yesterday I Felt Full of Fear but Today My Life is Perfect

When I take an honest look at my life I can see that everything is perfect right now. Today my health is good and I have ample money for my needs. I’m still working at a job I love, and I’m sure that there will be times today when I will enjoy a feeling of inner peace (this is the real gold in life). I have a beautiful wife and a terrific son. What more can I ask for? When I am honest with myself I see that all my problems are in the future, but I don’t have to worry about the future because it doesn’t exist yet. If I can take care of today I can have faith that tomorrow will take care of itself. This is what I tell myself, and I believe it.