Serial Quitter

It's been almost 40 hours since my last cigarette. Some people might cheer for me but sceptics like Johan would say, "that time of the year again?" I quit smoking more time than your momma got laid.

Yes, every now and then, I vowed that "this is my last cigarette ever" which of course, Johan has heard of for dozens of times before.

Why is it so hard for me to stay away from ciggie? I can actually handle the withdrawal. Withdrawal is not a problem. It's just that it's hard to quit when you smoke an average of 1 and 1/4 pack a day. Plus I hung around smokers all the time. Every once in a while, they will respect and encourage you to stay off cigarette. Then every once in a while you'll have a friend like Chew.

Let me tell you a story about this bastard called Chew. I've quit for almost one month at that time. Then this bastard joined us for lunch one time. The instance he found out I've quit smoking, he started blowing smoke in my direction, offers me a drag, which I denied. Then he offered me a stick, which I denied again. Then he offered me a pack, again I denied. Then he just raised his hand, call the mamak and said, "bagi Dunhill tiga." He kept one for himself and put the other two packs in front of me.

Another thing that makes it hard to quit is that the first cigarette after a long break from nicotine is the best. Also, I actually enjoy the withdrawal.

When it comes to statistic, I only know personally two people that died due to cigarette. I've lost dozens of relatives due to motorcycle accidents. At both cases, the dude was smoking immediately after playing sports. Heart attack. Both under 30 at that time.

Which brings me to the reason for me quitting this time around.

I got a squeezing chest pain on the night after after the incident on the previous post. The pain stayed for 10 - 15 minutes and then disappeared. After a while it came back again. So of course, I'm afraid it might be a symptoms of a heart attack. At which point I buzzed Ilya over YM and informed him that I'll be working until 3 am. If I'm suddenly AFK'd, call an ambulance.

I'm still worried though. But since it's past midnight, I just thought, fuck it. I'll just worry about it tomorrow (yeah, that's my usual "fuck-giving" level). But I did asked Nedd over Twitter if this chest pain is bad. Apparently it's most probably just a muscle spasm.

But I've quit smoking for almost two days now. Might as well keep on going and see how far I can go. Which might be one or two hours at most, since I'll be hanging out with Syed in a short while.

P.S. So, maybe I've quit smoking. But Cikgu Zara and Sufian Abas are turning me into a caffeine addict.