Motivation (or lack thereof)

Motivation. It's what we all possess at some point or another to complete a task at hand. As of late I have had a complete lack of it. I have no motivation for social media and no idea what to talk about either. No one wants to hear about my boring life not even me.

By nature I am a mostly anti-social person but in order to promote my novel I have to make nice and play along. I'm not that great at it. I only have a few close friends in "real life" and I've had them since school. I'm not good at making new ones.

It is this inherent lack of motivation to make new friends that has left me feeling jaded at the whole social media experience. I have a few people I converse with on a regular basis but they all reside six hours time difference away (or more) thus making regular communication difficult and even then most of the time it's just a few comments on blogs and some messages back and forth on Goodreads. I tell you I'm not cut out for this stuff.

I try, I really do but my brain is tired. I haven't had this much contact with social groups since high school and it wasn't fun then either. Socially awkward would be a  good description for me. I'm a better listener than talker really unless I know you really, really well. Tell me about you all day long, just don't expect much in return. I've tried to change that as of late but I feel I'm failing miserably at it.

Anyone else have this problem?