How Much I Enjoyed by Suman Pokhrel

How Much I Enjoyed
— By Suman Pokhrel


How much I enjoyed, how much I held,
Pretending through life, how much I lived.

I lived my youth in dreams of others,
I lived my love by the world’s gestures.
Endless hurdles to reach love’s paradise,
I lived in my beloved’s unspoken eyes.

I lived through beats, hiding my heart,
I lived barred, from ecstasy’s art.
No shrine to hold the faith I wore,
I lived my God within my heart’s core.

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(Original work written in December 1997 as कति भोगेँ अहिल्यै [Kati Bhogen Ahilyei], {Song Lyrics] in Nepali.)
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Translated by the poet.