ONE WHOLE YEAR WITHOUT MY MOM
It has officially been one terrible, confusing, and surreal year since my mom died on September 23, 2024 from a rare disease. The only time I see her now is when she appears in my dreams. Sometimes it’s a casual/uneventful appearance. Other times, I am shocked to see her. “Aren’t you dead,” I ask, confused yet elated. It then becomes clear that in this alternative dream timeline, she somehow survived CJD and I didn’t have to lose her.
In the more disturbing versions of these dreams, my dad is still with his new partner. Since it is dream logic, I assume he also thought she was going to die and had moved on only for my mom to make a remarkable recovery leaving him with one woman too many. In these dreams, he always stays with his new partner while my mother gracefully understands. There was even one night where we all attended a dinner party together. I found it more awkward than she did.
