Why Do I Keep Doing This?

Is there a reason for me to keep doing this?Photo by Jad Limcaco on Unsplash

For my first-ever New Year’s Action, back in 2011/2012, I decided to embrace my desire to be a more prolific writer. My New Year’s Action was this: I would write a blog entry, once a week, every Wednesday.

That was 707 weeks ago – 13.6 years. Every. Single. Wednesday. For more than 13 years.

When I started exploring this idea for choosing my own way in life – Pathwalking – I had no clue where it would take me. Nor did I know how it and the concepts I explore would evolve.

What have I learned? I’ve confirmed that consciousness creates reality, mindfulness empowers, change is the one and only constant in the Universe, and being a storyteller and sharing what I learn makes me feel good.

Yet, after 707 weeks of sharing these ideas, I still find I ask myself – Why do I keep doing this? Is there a reason for me to keep doing this?

Initially, this was an exercise in writing regularly, with a deadline, to keep myself honest. Then, I realized my path and my exploration of it might help other people. In time, when I started cross-posting to Medium, I thought I might gain a broader audience and make some money from this.

It has been almost 7 years since I joined Medium, and while I made a little money, overall, it didn’t become what I hoped it might. Disappointed in the current iteration of Medium, I don’t intend to renew my Partner Program membership when it comes up.

Why do I keep doing this?

My life over the past 13.6 years has changed in absolutely amazing ways. When all is said and done, I’ve gained a greater sense of purpose, made active, conscious choices and decisions for myself via mindfulness, got married to the most incredible partner I could imagine, moved to a place that feels more like home than any before, and improved my health mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and physically.

There are days I suck at Pathwalking. Distractions spark my depression, anger and upset me, and make me question everything. Yet, overall, I’m incredibly fortunate and am living a good life.

Most of all, I’m living my authentic self. Who I am here is who I am. Not the whole picture, of course, because no matter how much I share, you can’t get the whole picture. But the mostly positive, thoughtful, kind, compassionate, and empathetic person I present here is who I am.

Why do I keep doing this? Because if I can get to this place, so can you. By sharing what I’ve learned and experienced, I might be able to inspire you to seek, find, and walk your own path and find your empowerment.

I won’t lie to you. There are no quick fixes. This is not a One Size Fits All notion. But everyone, everywhere, can use active conscious awareness – mindfulness – to make choices and decisions for themselves.

I also keep doing this because I believe that more kindness, compassion, and empathy equals more empowerment for all. When you see horrid examples of our so-called leaders decrying kindness, compassion, empathy, and caring about others, any counter to that is a beacon of hope. Hope is good for everyone.

Photo by Cristina Gottardi on UnsplashNo hooky-spooky bullshit

No offense to anyone’s beliefs, but turning to anything outside of yourself – be it God, Trump, the Dalai Lama, anyone or anything else – to make your life better is unnecessarily incapacitating. That’s because you’re the only one in your head, heart, and soul, and you alone can make choices and decisions for who, what, where, how, and why you are.

Yes, circumstances outside your control will place you in situations you might not have otherwise chosen. Once there, however, you have choices and decisions available to change things. So long as you are alive, you are capable of being present in the here and now, mindful, and making choices and decisions for yourself.

Making your own mindful choices and decisions isn’t easy. However, it’s worthwhile if you desire to take control of your life’s paths. Sure, you can live subconsciously by rote, routine, and habit. Hell, sometimes you just need to in order to cope. Yet eventually this will leave you dissatisfied, and you’ll feel as if something’s off, or missing, or incomplete.

My life, since I started Pathwalking, working on mindfulness and conscious reality creation, continues to be interesting. There are always new things to learn, experiences to have, people to meet, places to go, and more. Yes, I have bad days, but more often than not, I feel empowered. And that is why I keep doing this. Because if I can get here, and I can show you some of what it took for me to do that, you can do this, too.

Why does that matter? Because when more people are empowered, the frequency of the collective consciousness is raised. When that happens, the horrid, selfish, greedy, and other bad actors can do less harm.

Is there a reason for me to keep doing this?

Yes. Because I believe that, deep down, people are genuinely good. The more we normalize how empowering kindness, compassion, and empathy are, the more we shift this fear-based society towards a more reason-based ideal.

I can only be an example others can choose to look to or look away from. I believe that the reason for me to keep doing this is that I’m a good example, and a helpful, empowering, maybe even inspiring person. Despite my imperfections, the fuckups I’ve made along the way, and all my other human failings, I desire to help people be the best they can be.

The process is ongoing. I’m always learning new things. But I, for one, love the vast potential and possibilities that even the assholes trying to burn the world down can’t stop or remove. I keep doing this because I hope I can help you see what I see. When more of us see hope, fewer of us see hopelessness. That does everyone good.

That’s why I keep doing this.

What do you learn when you ask why you do anything that you do?

This is the seventh-hundred-seventh (707) exploration of my Pathwalking philosophy. These weekly essays are my ideas for – and experiences with – applying mindfulness and positivity to walk along a chosen path of life to consciously create reality.

I share this journey as part of my desire to make a difference in this world and empower as many people as I can with conscious reality creation.

Thank you for joining me. Feel free to repost and share this.

The first year of Pathwalking, including expanded ideas, is available here. Check out my author website for the rest of my published fiction and nonfiction works.

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