Knowing Your Limits.

Ah, hello crazy eyes!!

Well I said I would report back.

How did I go? Well...This is awkward.

There are no words...no seriously there are no words. My head is in so many spaces I wonder if I am wearing too many hats?

1. The day Job.
2. The NaNo writer June adventure that will have me piece together second WIP.
3. Wrapping up and preparing edits on BoS
4. Preparing day job, home for 5 week absence.
5. Preparing for 5 week holiday.
6. Painfully aware as each day passes, that 'to do' list feels more and more suffocating.

I know you're all collectively rolling your eyes and telling me to 'suck it up' I am sure there are other peoples itinerary's out there that blow mine out of the water. There is probably a woman balancing a bub on her hip, mopping the floor, painting a picture, working on her teenagers science project, and manifesting world peace all while cooking a sumptuous, well balanced, nutritious meal for her family.

Kudos to you woman!

I am not complaining but I see the clouded vision of my work colleagues as I stress about my epic trip to America. I know their inner monologues are screaming:

"Boo-freakity-hoo, a trip to America for 5 weeks...pffft I hate you!"
But I do worry, and I usually pride myself on being relatively worry free. I worry about my animals, about my mum who is going to house sit for us, what if someone can't find the correct form at work? Do I pack to little or to much? It's all trivial, but stressful and hence the creative block I am suffering from...NOT WRITERS BLOCK! Remember I denounced that devil and I wont believe in it's existence.

I don't think I will feel at ease until I am on that plane. I have potentially signed up for NaNo at a very poor time of year when so many things are happening in my life. And when writing doesn't come easily to me that stresses me out more than anything as I feel at least that is the one thing I can control (Or so I thought.)

So I think I need to take step back, take a deep breath an accept the things I can not change, and just use the power of elimination to whittle down that 'to do' list and free up some much needed space in my mind.

No I am not complaining...I am just stressed! *Ugly cry*