I wish writing didn't include so much not-writing

I love writing, I honestly do. I got started with novels somewhat late, but writing, even in small ways has always been there for me when I need to work through something that's bouncing around in my head. But, now that I'm an 'author' and not just a guy who writes stuff for fun, I'm discovering an awful lot of 'not-writing' within the overall category of 'writer.' It would be lovely if I could do only that: write. No press releases (that writing doesn't count, don't be pedantic), no Quickbooks, no learning about Sales Taxes in Massachusetts. Just me and the thing I love to do: write. Because the thing is, it's not like I can turn the writing off. The book doesn't go away just because I have to set up my Square system tonight. The book doesn't care at all about the not-writing that has to be done, and it isn't overly patient. When I'm writing at an acceptable pace, the book whispers. It's whispering about scenes that are coming up, conflicts that are boiling in the background, blockages that must be cleared. Even when I'm putting in the work it doesn't ever go quiet. But when I'm not-writing? First it starts talking.
No more polite whispers in the quiet hours when I'm pouring my coffee or waiting for my daughter to be asleep. Talking at a normal volume. And the more I not-write, the louder it gets. The double edged sword of writing is that I started doing this thing to try and deal with sleep issues. Eyes drooping when I should be awake, mind racing when I should be drifting off. But now that the writing has established itself, it's gotten a bit cocky. Bold. Assertive. It knows its value to me and it can absolutely throw its weight around when it needs to. It can start talking when it's being ignored, and it can absolutely raise its voice if it is not attended to after that. And that's when I find my mind racing again at midnight, and I have to get the words out of my head. I have to write. I have to make the yelling become talking, become whispering. So, I have to find a balance here. I have to find ways to slip the writing in between bouts of not-writing. It's not easy. I'm not a professional writer yet, and so I still have a job. I have bills to pay, a kid to raise and a wife to love, and so both the writing and the not-writing have to slide into the spaces in-Denithor the Librarianbetween. As long as that is a necessity, the whispering will continue. Hopefully, I can keep the volume at an acceptable level.
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Published on May 22, 2025 03:59
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