twenty-something

it starts when you’re twenty, but it doesn’t feel like you’re twenty.
it feels like you’re eighteen.
it feels like nothing has changed and you’re scared of the world.
the world wants to cave in and you don’t know how to fight it.
it’s the anxiety to figure it out because if you didn’t figure life out at
eighteen
nineteen
you’re twenty now, you should know something.

and now you’re twenty-one and things change.
maybe you drink those drinks, maybe you don’t
either way it doesn’t matter because you’ll feel ...