ASD

It’s called Accumulated Stress Disorder. At least, that’swhat I call it. It’s symptoms are continued fatigue, a disinterest in doingpretty much everything, and a severe disinterest in the idea of ‘adulting’.That’s what I’ve been dealing with for a couple of weeks now.

I’ve been sleeping about 12 hours at night, and sometimes Ilay down for a 2-hr nap in the afternoon. A lot of days, 90% of my to do listfor that day gets shunted to the next day. I don’t want to drive anybody to thedoctor’s office, not even myself. I don’t want to go shopping or picking upmeds or even just leave the house.

But some things can’t be procrastinated, like doctor’sappointments, grocery shopping and picking up meds. So I do them, and when Iget home, I try taking a nap. That can help calm me down for the rest of theday, but it’s the sleeping for 12 hours that seems to help tamp down theaccumulated stress.

My counselor suggests I book one day a week as ‘Me’ time. Aday with no appointments, no errands, just me at home, writing on my latestWork in Progress. I love the idea. I have said many times that writing helps mestay sane. I used to think the weekends were ideal for this, but this weekend,I ran errands for the family on Saturday, and on Sunday, John decided he wantedto go to Walmart, so I drove him there and home again. Then I took a 2-hr napto calm down and washed the dishes. Thus, the weekend was full of adulting.

But Thursday was empty. I kept it empty so I could spend theday writing. Well, I had to adult for quite a bit of the day, but I did get 3hours of writing in the afternoon! I wrote over a thousand words, so I washappy about that.